Saturday’s Full Moon (8:38 pm PST) – the emotional peak of the month – lights up fiery, festive, expressive Leo. The Leo Full Moon is typically a time for fun and celebration, but the feeling tone of this lunation is a bit different.
The Sun and Moon will square Saturn in Scorpio, potentially putting a damper on the festivities and illuminating the ways that we may not feel especially happy or creative. The Moon will also form an exact quincunx (150-degree angle) to Chiron in Pisces, calling attention to the wounds that block us from freely expressing ourselves and passionately participating in the present moment.
As I was writing the above, a little girl came over (I’m at a coffee shop) and wanted to play with my computer, reminding me that Leo is also the sign of the child. She may have had some useful insights to add, but her father intervened. (“You can play with Daddy’s computer at home.”) Ideally, Leo brings out childlike qualities – innocence, playfulness, unselfconscious self-expression, the ability to lose all sense of time while fully engaging in the now. Less ideally, Leo can devolve into childishness – melodrama, self-absorption, and what Caroline Casey calls “tantrum yoga.”
The Leo Full Moon evokes our inner child, while the square to Saturn – planet of maturity, responsibility and commitment – asks, What steps can you take to help your inner child grow up, and can you do so with love, acceptance and patience rather than harshness, judgment and self-punishment (shadow Saturn)?
The energy of this Full Moon – which we’re already swimming in – could feel rather heavy-hearted. Leo rules the heart, while Saturn works through pressure, including depression (think, saturnine). Optimally, Saturnian depression can be productive, compelling us to turn inward and gain clarity, in this case to identify the elements of life that genuinely light us up, feed our hearts, inspire our creativity and passion, and feel like fun.
Saturn in Scorpio cuts beneath the layers of what we think we SHOULD want and instead calls for getting honest about the truth of our hearts. Once we’ve identified our authentic feelings, then we can use the Saturnian gift of strategy to make a plan for responsibly letting go of what no longer makes us happy, and creating a life that more accurately reflects our heart’s present-time desires.
Saturn’s square to the Leo Full Moon asks, How committed are you to your happiness and self-expression? Saturn rules time, and one of the most common excuses people make for why they’re not having fun, doing what they love, or pursuing their creative goals (essential Leo expressions) is that they don’t have time.
In our overly busy, hyper-scheduled, overflowing-with-trivial-distractions culture, there’s some validity to this excuse. It takes serious boundary-setting, vigilance and self-discipline (positive Saturn) not to get caught up in the collective trance of “no time, no time.” Or, as the immensely creative (recently departed) Gabrielle Roth wisely put it, “It takes a tremendous discipline to be a free spirit.”
Saturn in Scorpio wants us to take a deeper look at what’s really going on – what if it WASN’T about the time? Typically, when we dig beneath the surface to uncover the source of what prevents us from expressing ourselves, pursuing our passions, and fully embracing the joy of the moment, we find fear, also ruled by Saturn.
And, in the case of this Full Moon, we’re getting into wounded-child territory (hello, Chiron) – the ways that our naturally bright lights may have been shut down early on by fearful parents, oppressive schools, etc., resulting in a fear of shining, even a fear of being seen. There’s also the fear of being different, the fear of standing out and being successful (“no one will love me if I’m exuberantly happy and creating the life of my dreams”), and the fear of failure (“I’ll look like a fool if I try and fail”).
The Leo-Aquarius axis is ultimately about love, and the antidote to wallowing in self-pity and/or self-punishment would be to take responsibility for loving ourselves, loving that little girl or boy hidden (or not so hidden) inside our adult body, wounds and all. It takes no small amount of courage – from the French coeur, meaning heart – to keep our hearts open when the painfully vulnerable wounded child part of ourselves appears.
To get more insight into what this Full Moon means for YOU, find the house in your birth chart that contains 7 degrees Leo. The areas of life signified by that house are where you’re being called to: identify your heart’s authentic desires; courageously commit to your creativity and passion; feel and heal childhood wounds and fears around letting your light shine; and love love love yourself.
– Emily Trinkaus
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