Re-Visioning Your Healing Story – The Pisces Deluge, Jupiter in Gemini and the Jupiter-Chiron Square

piscesWe’re approaching the peak of this winter’s watery deluge, which culminates at the Pisces New Moon on March 11 with an astounding seven planets in the sign of the Fish. In its higher expression, this Pisces party opens the potential for spiritual breakthrough, deep healing, and reconnection with soul purpose – while a less productive possibility looks like wallowing in self-pity, victimization, disappointment and disillusion.

As the traditional ruler of Pisces, Jupiter – truth, wisdom and expansion – holds special power during the Piscean deluge, and provides a key to navigating the emotional, dreamy, sometimes overwhelming and often confusing high tides. Jupiter in Gemini (June 11, 2012-June 25, 2013), the sign of perception and communication, supports breaking free from fixed mental constructs and opening to different perspectives and new ideas as a path to deeper wisdom. When Jupiter in Gemini is operating unconsciously, it can feel like mental overload – too much information, too many communications, trying to go in too many directions at once – leading to distraction from your deeper truth and purpose.

Mercury is the ruler of Gemini and, due to his Retrograde, is making an extra-long tour through Pisces – February 5 to April 13 – which means that Mercury and Jupiter are in “mutual reception,” occupying one another’s sign. Their mutual reception reinforces the themes and lessons of both planets – we’re being challenged to disrupt habitual patterns of perceiving ourselves and the world, to connect and communicate in new ways, to rewrite the stories we tell about what’s possible.

gemini the twinsSince both Mercury and Jupiter are both in the sign of their “detriment,” there’s an inherent discomfort as we navigate this territory, reflected in the natural square – 90-degree angle of tension and challenge – between Gemini and Pisces in the zodiac. Gemini (Air) operates on the level of the rational mind, while Pisces (Water) navigates through feelings. Gemini relies on logical analysis, Pisces on intuition. Gemini objectively presents the data of “what is,” Pisces imagines what could be. Gemini expresses ideas through language, finding just the right words to convey a mental concept, while Pisces expresses the soul’s deepest longing, the ultimately unknowable mind of the Divine, through music, poetry, dance.

Trying to integrate these two very different energies can result in awkward, stumbling, meandering, and sometimes completely unproductive conversations. Attempts to put language around deep feelings, intuitive hits, and areas of life that are mysterious and submerged in the unconscious can result in miscommunications and misunderstandings. We may have a hard time saying what we mean, or even wrapping our own minds around what we mean.

Without withdrawing from communicating and connecting altogether, it’s a good idea to bring a lot of patience, spaciousness and sensitivity to the process (speaking from experience here, after doing the exact opposite…). Slowing down, thinking before speaking. With so many planets congregating in Pisces, everyone is feeling more sensitive and psychically open. Our words have a lot of power now, power that may not be apparent when the ideas are floating around in our minds, but that can pack an unexpected punch once articulated.

chironWhile the faster-moving planets (Sun, Mercury, Venus, Mars) are moving through Pisces, they form squares to Jupiter in Gemini, but the most notable activation of the Gemini-Pisces dynamic is happening through the ongoing square between Jupiter and Chiron. Chiron in Pisces, according to Eric Francis, “is about helping us see what we have been missing or not paying attention to” (The Missing Piece). Mercury Retrograde, a time for uncovering and recovering more of our truth, reinforces this potential, and especially since Mercury meets up with Chiron three times – February 10, March 8 and March 29.

Jupiter’s square to Chiron – the archetype of the Wounded Healer – expands both our deepest pain and our highest potential for healing. This is the energy of, “if it’s a problem, make it bigger,” which can be most helpful in bringing to the surface unconscious, self-sabotaging patterns, though not necessarily a pleasant experience. The Jupiter-Chiron square was first exact on July 24 (see Reflection, Regression and Compassion), then on January 14 (when Jupiter was Retrograde), and the third will be on March 26, though we’re basically in the energy of it for the next few months.

One of the big Piscean wounds that we’re ALL working through as we transition out of the Age of Pisces is victimization. If there’s a story you tell about your past in which you play the victim (“He made me…,” “They wouldn’t let me…”), consider, as a Jupiter-Chiron/Mercury Retro exercise, re-telling that story from the perspective of your higher self. How did that event serve your growth and healing as a soul? You can also shower that earlier version of yourself with unconditional love, compassion and forgiveness, knowing that you did the absolute best that you could under the circumstances. Sometimes, to get to an authentic place of forgiveness (of yourself and others), it first takes grieving – really feeling the feelings that are tied to those memories.

This is a time for being SO gentle with ourselves, for trusting the process of healing, and really tending to that process – resisting the temptation to check out and escape from what may sometimes feel like too much. The last time I wrote about the Jupiter-Chiron square, I quoted Melanie Reinhart’s guidance for how to work with this planetary combination, and it’s worth repeating: “The crucial factor is our willingness to reflect deeply on our experiences, to balance our expansion with enough stillness and introversion where some inner synthesis (Jupiter) can be reached.” (Chiron and the Healing Journey)

- Emily Trinkaus

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Return to Essence – Mercury Turns Retrograde in Pisces

“The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind.”
– Carolyn Myss

Mercury turns Rmercuryetrograde on Saturday (1:41 am PST) – are you feeling it? Confusion, miscommunications, technical glitches, unexpected delays, a hard time translating what’s in your head into coherent sentences… Mercury the Messenger is the planet of perception, communication and connection, and Mercury Retrograde wants you to slow down, turn inward, revisit the past, and reflect on your vision for the future.

While Mercury is Retrograde – until March 17 – it’s best to complete or re-do projects from the past, rather than initiating new ventures. The information you need to make a big decision may not yet be apparent or available, and your analytical mind is not as sharp as usual. If possible, postpone signing contracts, buying cars or computers, and making long-term commitments. And right about now would be a great time to back up your computer data!

Completing unfinished business is always a theme during Mercury Retro, and this time especially so, since Mercury is in Pisces – the last sign of the zodiac. Pisces rules the invisible, mysterious realm of dreams, imagination, intuition and Spirit. Mercury Retro in Pisces calls for cleaning up unfinished psychic, energetic and emotional business – past (and even past-life) traumas submerged in the subtle layers of the unconscious, and covering up our true selves, our essence. Piscean strategies for returning to Source include forgiveness, acceptance, compassion, grief, unconditional love, and surrender to a higher power.

piscesMercury is one of five (and as of Monday, six) planets in Pisces, and as I wrote in my previous post, we’re in a very watery time, best used for healing, dissolving the past and replenishing our spirits. Pisces needs a lot of space and spaciousness for BEING and FEELING. Pisces is the most sensitive sign, and right now (and for the next few weeks), everyone is more psychically open, more vulnerable to absorbing other people’s thoughts and feelings. Honor and protect your sensitivity, and take time to unplug, retreat, and re-source yourself in your own pure essence.

As Mercury reverses directions (or appears to, from our earthly perspective), he meets up with Mars – passion, desire, courage and individuality – and this Martian influence flavors the entire Retrograde. Mars in Pisces is the soul’s true desire – not what we think we should want, or what we think other people think we should want (which all gets very complicated), but what we really long for at the deepest level. The Mercury-Mars conjunction calls for reconnecting with our soul-level desires, and revitalizing the courage it takes to trust and act on our own intuitive guidance, even when it doesn’t make sense or seem practical to the logical mind.

Find out more about what this Mercury Retro means for YOU by identifying the house (or houses) of your birth chart that contain 5-19 degrees of Pisces. The areas of life signified by that house (or houses) are where you are: dissolving the past; healing self-sabotaging patterns; reconnecting with your soul-level passions and desires; and reviewing, revising and reanimating your dreams for the future.

- Emily Trinkaus

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Entering a World of Feeling – The Sun Enters Pisces and Saturn Stations Retrograde

piscesWater is the strongest element of 2013, and we’re coming into a time when the tides are especially high. The Sun enters Pisces on Monday, joining four other planets – Neptune, Chiron, Mars and Mercury – in the watery, sensitive, dreamy, intuitive sign of the Fish.

The Sun in Pisces marks the closing of the astrological year, a month of purification, rest and healing, when we’re called to return to Source. This is a time for dissolving the past, and tuning into our dreams, imagination and intuition to bring forth a new vision. We’re both closing out a cycle, and preparing for the new one that will begin at Spring Equinox on March 20, when the Sun enters Aries.

Saturn in Scorpio – another Water sign – is also particularly potent right now. Saturn turns Retrograde on Monday, though we’ve been stewing in the energy for the past few weeks, getting in touch with intense feelings and old pain and becoming aware of what is and isn’t working in the areas of intimacy, sexuality and power. Because this is Saturn’s first Retrograde since entering Scorpio on October 4, the issues could feel particularly acute. And because Scorpio is a Fixed sign, there can also be a feeling of stuckness as the issues come into focus. If any planets in your birth chart fall in the range of 5 to 15 (or so) degrees of the Fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius), then Saturn’s reversal is likely to be especially intense.

saturnSaturn Retrograde (until July 7) focuses attention inward and toward the past to heal the places where your feelings shut down, where you built walls of protection that are now holding you back and draining your energy. Saturn Retrograde returns you to the times when you felt abandoned, betrayed, abused, unloved or unworthy and didn’t have the maturity, tools or resources to feel the feelings and move through the pain. You survived, you coped, you kept on keeping on, you did the best that you could under the circumstances. Now, it’s time to revisit those stuck and frozen parts of yourself to do the necessary emotional work, soften your defenses, reclaim your power, and regenerate your vitality.

One of Saturn’s lessons is patience, and Saturn in Scorpio teaches that emotional healing is often a slow, step-by-step process. As we take one small step forward, and then the next, we can practice being patient, gentle and loving with ourselves. We can lean into the support of those planets in Pisces to bring more compassion, forgiveness and unconditional love to the places that seem so hopelessly stuck.

And while Saturn in Scorpio pushes us to take responsibility for our emotional healing, this doesn’t mean we have to do it all on our own. Taking responsibility sometimes means asking for help, which requires vulnerability, trust and humility, and therefore is not always easy (especially if you have a strong Scorpio or Pluto signature in your birth chart). Scorpio is the sign of mutual empowerment, and Saturn in Scorpio can help you see more clearly the people in your life who genuinely support your growth and healing, and those who are not serving your highest good. This is a time to deepen your connection with those you can trust, and to lovingly detach from those you can’t. Your instincts are your best guide.

- Emily Trinkaus

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Tonight’s Aquarius New Moon and How to Find It in Your Chart

aquariusIn the spirit of using the forward momentum of current planetary energies to take care of unfinished business (see my previous post), I am finally fulfilling my promise to explain how to find where a cosmic event is happening in your own birth chart.

For those of you who are new to my blog (welcome!), when I write about the New or Full Moon, I usually say something like, “Find out more about what this means for YOU by finding the house in your birth chart that’s being activated.” And then I get a flurry of emails from readers asking how to do that, to which I’ve been replying, “I’m going to write a post about that!” (Actually, initially I was planning to make a video about it, but got overwhelmed by technical issues…)

Why bother finding where the New or Full Moon is happening in your chart? While there’s a lot of great information you can get just from knowing what’s happening in the sky, you can get more detailed and specific about how that information applies to you personally when you know which part of your chart is being affected. With that awareness, you can work with the cosmic energy more consciously and effectively.

But First A Word about the Aquarius New Moon…

Before I get all astro-technical on you, I want to say a bit about the Aquarius New Moon, which will happen tonight at 11:21 pm PST. Each New Moon initiates a new cycle that highlights the themes of the sign in which it occurs. Aquarius is the sign of the rebel and revolutionary – the part of you that breaks the mold, breaks free from tradition and past conditioning, and follows your own internal navigation system instead of following the crowd. Even if you don’t have any planets in Aquarius, you’ve got the sign somewhere in your chart.

Aquarius represents the place in you that feels different from other people – the “outsider” – and you have the choice to celebrate that difference and act as an innovator and catalyst for social change; suppress it, cover it up, and pretend you’re just like everybody else; or separate yourself from society altogether, claiming that “no one understands me” and “I’ll never be accepted for who I am.

As I mentioned in my last post, this New Moon squares the Nodal Axis, which intensifies the above themes and stirs up a feeling of being pulled, or possibly stuck, between past and future. Maybe you see the ways that you’ve NOT followed your inner guidance in the past because you were afraid of what others would think and of not being accepted. Maybe your passion is calling you in an exciting-yet-terrifying new direction, and you’re worried about appearing (or being) crazy for wanting to leave behind what seems “safe” but is sucking your life juice. Ideally, this New Moon presents an opportunity to identify and free yourself from fear-based attachments and self-defeating karmic patterns.

total solar eclipseThe Nodal Axis (the North and South Nodes of the Moon) travel in tandem with the Eclipse cycle, and this New Moon precisely squares (forms a 90-degree angle to) the Scorpio Solar Eclipse – an extra-potent New Moon that happened on November 13. What was going on for you then? What seeds of intention did you plant? The Aquarius New Moon is now catalyzing those seeds into their next phase of growth, calling you to take the next courageous step that revitalizes your passion and brings you closer to your dream for the future.

And Now – How to Find this New Moon in Your Chart

First, you will need a copy of your birth chart (you can get one for free on astro.com), for which you will need a reasonably accurate time of birth. The position of the houses in your chart depends on the time and place of birth, and if your birth time is off by even 15 minutes, the houses can shift significantly. If you don’t know your time of birth, and your mom isn’t a helpful resource, you could try checking your birth certificate (it’s sometimes on there). If you can’t track it down, you might consider having your chart “rectified” – where an astrologer determines your time of birth based on key events in your life (I don’t do this myself, but I can give you a referral).

As you look at your chart, you’ll see there’s an outer wheel of symbols – these are the 12 signs of the zodiac, which represent different energies and archetypes. Each sign is divided into 30 degrees, creating a circle of 360 degrees. The next set of symbols inside the wheel are the glyphs for the planets, which represent different parts of yourself or aspects of consciousness. You’ll see that each planet symbol has a number next to it – that’s the degree that the planet was at when you were born.

Below is the chart of a hypothetical person, let’s call her Stella, who was born on May 5, 1982 at 4:00 pm in Portland, Oregon. This is how the chart looks in the software I use, SolarFire, but I’m also including a link to the chart on astro.com: stella_chart

stella_chart

The birth chart is like a picture of the sky at the moment of birth. As the planets move through the sky, they occupy different signs of the zodiac, and different degrees (or portions) of those signs (e.g., when Stella was born, the Moon occupied 21 degrees of Libra).

The houses – the 12 pieces of the pie – are a way of dividing up the sky in order to bring more specificity about how these planets and signs are playing out in an individual’s life (or in the “life” of a particular entity – like a business or country – or an event). The houses, called “topos” – “topics” – by the ancient Greeks, signify different areas of life, realms of experience, or circumstances. They also correlate with phases of development. Cafe Astrology has a good overview of the meanings of the houses here.

A note on house systems: There are MANY ways to divide up the houses in a chart, and using different house systems can result in planets in your chart moving into different houses, thereby changing the interpretation of your chart. If you’re a serious student of astrology, I encourage you to experiment with trying out different house systems to see which one feels right to you. I believe there is no “right” answer when it comes to house systems – find the one that works best for YOU. If you don’t really care about the astro-technicalities and just want to learn about your own chart, keep it simple and go with whatever version of your chart you have in front of you. I use the Placidus house system, which is also the default system on astro.com.

Now we’re ready to find where the New Moon is happening in Stella’s birth chart. The New Moon is at 21 degrees Aquarius. First we want to find the symbol for Aquarius – it’s those double wavy lines that are on the cusp of the 5th House (on the line dividing the pieces of the pie marked 4 and 5). The 5th House begins at 0 degree Aquarius and ends at 1 degree Pisces (which begins the next house), so we can surmise that 21 degrees Aquarius is contained within her 5th House (the signs progress from left to right, counter-clockwise). The New Moon therefore falls in her 5th House, activating themes having to do with creativity, happiness, individuality, children and romance.

The process is going to be a little different with a chart from astro.com, so let’s take a look. In this version of the chart, you don’t see the degree numbers on the wheel (just little notches representing the degrees), so you have to look at the table in the lower left corner of the page, the one that starts with AC: 26 Vir (which translates to: the Ascendant, or Rising Sign, which is the cusp of the first house, is at 26 degrees of Virgo [you can ignore those other numbers after the sign]). This table gives you the beginning degrees of the 1st (AC), 2nd, 3rd, and 10th (MC), 11th and 12th houses.

We want to know about the 5th House, since that’s where we see the sign Aquarius. There’s no listing for the 5th House, so we have to look to the opposite house, which is house number 11. We see that the 11th House starts with 0 degree Leo; the 5th House will always start with the same degree for the opposite sign, in this case, 0 degree Aquarius. Did that make sense? So if you want to find out about the 8th House, you look at the opposite house – the 2nd House – which starts at 21 Libra. The 8th therefore starts at 21 Aries, the sign opposite Libra.

Since this New Moon catalyzes themes from the November 13 Solar Eclipse, we might also want to find out which house was activated then. The Eclipse was at 21 degrees Scorpio, which turns out to be right on the line between Stella’s 2nd and 3rd Houses (also called the cusp of the 3rd House). When this is the case, it’s useful to consider the themes of BOTH houses. Maybe the themes of one house resonate more strongly than the other, or maybe the themes of the houses are tied together. In this example, perhaps she planted seeds for a new writing project (3rd House) with the intention of increasing her income (2nd House).

Your turn – where is the Aquarius New Moon happening in YOUR chart? How about the Scorpio Solar Eclipse?

Was this little astro-lesson helpful? Comprehensible? Please ask questions in the comments section and I’ll do my best to respond! Wishing you a blessed New moon.

- Emily Trinkaus

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Back to the Future – Entering the Mercury Retrograde Shadow at the Aquarius New Moon

aquariusWe’re in the season of quickening, when the light is noticeably returning and what’s been dormant is ready to reawaken. Yesterday was Imbolc, the traditional Cross-Quarter holy day that marks the halfway point between Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox – a time to nurture our inner fire so it can serve as a guiding light through the second half of winter.

Astrologically, the Sun has crossed the midpoint of forward-thinking, future-oriented Aquarius. Imbolc is associated with prophecy, which is one of the Aquarian gifts – the ability to see the bigger picture and higher vision of where we’re headed. The sparks of vitality and inspiration stirring within are signals as to the future that wants to be created. We don’t yet need to know how to bring our desires into form, or even what exactly they’ll look like – our job for now is simply to pay attention to where the life force is calling us and encourage our inner light to grow brighter.

This year, Imbolc occurs during a rare cosmic moment when all the planets are moving forward – an all-systems-go window of opportunity to make strong forward progress. (Of course planets are always moving forward, but sometimes they appear to go backwards – Retrograde – from our Earthly perspective.) This window opened on January 30, when Jupiter turned Direct (forward), and will close on February 18, when Saturn turns Retrograde.

The sky story suggests that the momentum of these forward-moving planets is best utilized to complete unfinished business and clean up the past – even as we clarify our desires and set intentions for the future. What needs to be resolved, completed, healed, released, purified, etc. before initiating a new direction?

This back-up-to-move-forward dynamic is a characteristicmercury of Mercury Retrograde, and we’re about to enter into the next Retro cycle. Although Mercury will officially reverse directions on February 23 (until March 17), we’ll enter the Retrograde “shadow” on Friday, meaning that we’ll start to feel the influence. Mercury will be in Pisces – joining Mars, Chiron and Neptune in the sign of the Fish – bringing attention to the watery inner world of imagination, intuition, dreams and spiritual ideals. Pisces is also the sign of purification and dissolving past attachments.

Reinforcing the Retro theme, Saturday’s New Moon in Aquarius (11:21 pm PST) will form a precise square – 90-degree angle of tension and challenge – to the Nodal axis, which represents our karmic past and evolutionary future. We might feel pulled between – and even stuck between – the attachments that appear to keep us “safe” but feel stagnant and vitality-depleting (South Node in Taurus) and the energizing, passion-inciting yet terrifyingly mysterious and unknown future (North Node in Scorpio).

scorpioThis New Moon presents a powerful opportunity to see, with Aquarian objectivity and detachment, where we want to go, and what gets in the way of going there. And the upcoming lunar cycle is ideal for freeing ourselves from fear-based attachments and self-defeating karmic patterns. The Scorpio North Node suggests that the best way forward is to trust our instincts, follow our passions, and embrace the mystery – a lesson reinforced by Saturn in Scorpio, the traditional ruler of Aquarius and therefore a key player at this New Moon.

With so much going on in the Fixed signs – Aquarius, Taurus and Scorpio – there’s a strong potential for feelings of stuckness, which can easily devolve into hopelessness and despair. The old patterns come into awareness and they can seem impossible to shift. A powerful way to move through stuckness is conscious surrender – not giving up, but giving over. I love how Marion Woodman describes this process, which to me sounds like high-vibration Saturn in Scorpio:

“I can tell you that it takes great strength to surrender. You have to know that you are not going to collapse. Instead, you are going to open to a power that you don’t even know, and it is going to come to meet you. In the process of healing, this is one of the huge things that I have discovered. People recognized the energy coming to meet them. When they opened to another energy, a love, a divine love, came through to meet them. That is what is known as grace…. It is a gift. I think that it comes through the work that we do. For some people, it can come out of the blue, but I know that in my own situation, the grace came through incredible vigilance.”

- Emily Trinkaus

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Creativity, Courage and Commitment – Approaching the Leo Full Moon

leoSaturday’s Full Moon (8:38 pm PST) – the emotional peak of the month – lights up fiery, festive, expressive Leo. The Leo Full Moon is typically a time for fun and celebration, but the feeling tone of this lunation is a bit different.

The Sun and Moon will square Saturn in Scorpio, potentially putting a damper on the festivities and illuminating the ways that we may not feel especially happy or creative. The Moon will also form an exact quincunx (150-degree angle) to Chiron in Pisces, calling attention to the wounds that block us from freely expressing ourselves and passionately participating in the present moment.

As I was writing the above, a little girl came over (I’m at a coffee shop) and wanted to play with my computer, reminding me that Leo is also the sign of the child. She may have had some useful insights to add, but her father intervened. (“You can play with Daddy’s computer at home.”) Ideally, Leo brings out childlike qualities – innocence, playfulness, unselfconscious self-expression, the ability to lose all sense of time while fully engaging in the now. Less ideally, Leo can devolve into childishness – melodrama, self-absorption, and what Caroline Casey calls “tantrum yoga.”

saturnThe Leo Full Moon evokes our inner child, while the square to Saturn – planet of maturity, responsibility and commitment – asks, What steps can you take to help your inner child grow up, and can you do so with love, acceptance and patience rather than harshness, judgment and self-punishment (shadow Saturn)?

The energy of this Full Moon – which we’re already swimming in – could feel rather heavy-hearted. Leo rules the heart, while Saturn works through pressure, including depression (think, saturnine). Optimally, Saturnian depression can be productive, compelling us to turn inward and gain clarity, in this case to identify the elements of life that genuinely light us up, feed our hearts, inspire our creativity and passion, and feel like fun.

Saturn in Scorpio cuts beneath the layers of what we think we SHOULD want and instead calls for getting honest about the truth of our hearts. Once we’ve identified our authentic feelings, then we can use the Saturnian gift of strategy to make a plan for responsibly letting go of what no longer makes us happy, and creating a life that more accurately reflects our heart’s present-time desires.

Saturn’s square to the Leo Full Moon asks, How committed are you to your happiness and self-expression? Saturn rules time, and one of the most common excuses people make for why they’re not having fun, doing what they love, or pursuing their creative goals (essential Leo expressions) is that they don’t have time.

chronosIn our overly busy, hyper-scheduled, overflowing-with-trivial-distractions culture, there’s some validity to this excuse. It takes serious boundary-setting, vigilance and self-discipline (positive Saturn) not to get caught up in the collective trance of “no time, no time.” Or, as the immensely creative (recently departed) Gabrielle Roth wisely put it, “It takes a tremendous discipline to be a free spirit.

Saturn in Scorpio wants us to take a deeper look at what’s really going on – what if it WASN’T about the time? Typically, when we dig beneath the surface to uncover the source of what prevents us from expressing ourselves, pursuing our passions, and fully embracing the joy of the moment, we find fear, also ruled by Saturn.

And, in the case of this Full Moon, we’re getting into wounded-child territory (hello, Chiron) – the ways that our naturally bright lights may have been shut down early on by fearful parents, oppressive schools, etc., resulting in a fear of shining, even a fear of being seen. There’s also the fear of being different, the fear of standing out and being successful (“no one will love me if I’m exuberantly happy and creating the life of my dreams”), and the fear of failure (“I’ll look like a fool if I try and fail”).

The Leo-Aquarius axis is ultimately about love, and the antidote to wallowing in self-pity and/or self-punishment would be to take responsibility for loving ourselves, loving that little girl or boy hidden (or not so hidden) inside our adult body, wounds and all. It takes no small amount of courage – from the French coeur, meaning heart – to keep our hearts open when the painfully vulnerable wounded child part of ourselves appears.

To get more insight into what this Full Moon means for YOU, find the house in your birth chart that contains 7 degrees Leo. The areas of life signified by that house are where you’re being called to: identify your heart’s authentic desires; courageously commit to your creativity and passion; feel and heal childhood wounds and fears around letting your light shine; and love love love yourself.

- Emily Trinkaus

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The Astrology of 2013 – the Wisdom of Darkness and the Art of Conscious Surrender

“We might have lost the Light and the Height; but more frightening, we have lost the Mystery and the Deep, the Emptiness and the Abyss, and lost it in a world dedicated to surfaces and shadows, exteriors and shells, whose prophets lovingly exhort us to dive into the shallow end of the pool head first.” – Ken Wilber, Sex, Ecology and Spirit

the beginning is nearThe start of 2013 could feel like a major buzz kill, if you were counting on the world as we know it ending on December 21, 2012 – either by fiery apocalypse or ecstatic ascension. For those of us who still seem to be “here” and for whom “here” appears as the same old, same old, we’ve got some work ahead of us. Welcome to the new year.

As I wrote in a previous post, my take on the Winter Solstice is that, if there was a shift, it was subtle, and it was internal. The chart of the Solstice pointed to a crisis of faith and meaning, a profound collective disillusionment with the web of lies that props up the dying system, and the necessity of realigning with our instincts and inner Truth in order to reclaim our power and renew our faith.

If nothing else, according to Mayan scholars (or some of them anyway), it was the start of a new cycle, the 14th Baktun, a period of approximately 400 years. At the beginning of any cycle, there is no external evidence of change or growth. At the New Moon, the monthly start of each new lunar cycle, we can’t see the Moon at all – the night sky is completely dark. The seed is planted, and unless you dig in under the surface of the ground, it looks like nothing is happening.

Underground, in the dark, in the invisible realm of feelings, imagination, magic and mystery is where much of the “action” of 2013 is happening. The new world is being seeded from within, and our work is to direct our attention toward the depths, and recover the wisdom of the dark. This is a deeply feminine process, and one that is misunderstood, feared and resisted by the dominant culture (the culture of dominance). Astrologer Demetra George writes:

pluto“As the conscious ego rejects and denies the experiences and wisdom of the dark phase, these contents grow to embody our worst fears and assume the frightening form of the demonic ‘shadow’ in individuals and society. Society’s attitudes towards people of color, women’s sexuality, the occult, the unconscious, the psychic arts, the aged, and death itself are all manifestations of these fearful… projections.” (Mysteries of the Dark Moon)

In 2013, our demonic shadows and fearful projections rise up into consciousness in unignorable ways, demanding to be acknowledged and felt, ready to be healed, transformed and released. The awakening and liberation of dark forces, the confrontation with our shadows, is signified by the ongoing square between Uranus in Aries and Pluto in Capricorn, which is exact seven times from 2012-2015 and will peak this year on May 20 and November 1.

As the moldy old patriarchal systems and structures self-destruct, and the global elite attempts to crush the awakening and liberation of humanity, we are under intense pressure to free ourselves from the fear that fuels the old paradigm, recognize the truth of who we are, and reclaim our authority to create the world we desire.

Saturn in Scorpio – the work of uncovering and healing core wounds in order to regenerate power – combines forces this year with Neptune and Chiron in Pisces, and, starting in June, with Jupiter in Cancer. Scorpio, Pisces and Cancer are Water signs, and this inundation of the Water element can serve as a great resource for the tremendous challenges we face, or as a detriment. As always with astrology, the planetary energies are neutral, and how they play out depends on the level of awareness we bring to them.

pacific rimThe dominant culture’s relationship with Water – the feminine, unpredictable, chaotic, mysterious realm of feeling, intuition and imagination – is summed up in the movie Pacific Rim, scheduled to come out in mid-July, right at the peak of the Jupiter-Saturn-Neptune Grand Trine, when the Water element is strongest. The preview goes something like this (I’m summarizing, but you can see the trailer here): “We thought the evil aliens would come from the sky, but they’re coming from the ocean! Giant water monsters want to destroy humanity, but we’re going to build the most bad-ass robot weapons that have ever existed and beat the crap out of them!” (Fear of the feminine, anyone?)

Needless to say, outside of Hollywood, this hyper-yang approach to the Water element typically doesn’t go so well. Feelings are the intermediaries between the material and spirit realm, and when we deny, repress, disown or numb them with our addiction of choice, we suffer from a lack of spiritual nourishment. We feel dry, depressed, alone and isolated, and can easily default into unconscious surrender – hopelessness and despair.

As the tides of feeling rise, as our shadows emerge, our challenge is to work WITH the Water, without getting totally overwhelmed and drowning in the deluge. We can tap into the power of Saturn in Scorpio and the Grand Water Trine by creating structures for communing with the Mystery and surrendering the ego. Spiritual practice, art, music, dance and dream work are potential allies for helping us move through feelings, strengthen our inner guidance systems, and increase our felt connection with the Divine.

Tremendous power is available when we make friends with the Mystery and align with the flow of life, even when it defies the rational mind’s idea of who we are or what “should” be. This is a year for transforming and expanding our sense of self, for remembering who we are – infinite beings, Source consciousness, the creator gods and goddesses we’ve been waiting for.

- Emily Trinkaus

Portlandia Priestesses! I’ll be talking tonight, 7:00-9:00, for the Women’s Community Group about these 2013 themes in much greater detail. And, my sister Galactivator, Katie Todd, will join us and do a special energy healing session to help us align with the Water element! All women are welcome.

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